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“Do you know how to take a pulse?” Flint asked.

We were on his friend’s couch, my dress hiked up to expose my upper thigh. It was already red and swollen from a few tenderizing punches and a couple of nasty slaps. Upstairs, one of Flint’s partners was messing around with his friend, though we couldn’t hear them from down on the couch. Earlier that week, Flint had texted me about it, saying he’d bring me along as entertainment while he essentially whored out his partner (for free, of course), a shared fantasy of theirs. I’d blushed, but totally agreed.

He made me wait for him on a street corner and pointed out the spot I’d left on his seat the last time I had sat there. Later, I would clean it up with my mouth. But, for now, we were on the couch downstairs. Flint was attempting to disprove my previous claim that I didn’t bruise, which had made him smirk uncontrollably when I had declared it at the munch we met at. 

“Yes,” I replied, taking my fingers and finding the artery. “It’s…it’s pretty even.”

Flint grinned and delivered another blow to my thigh. I cried out in pain. I was starting to discover that I just about hated the medium-strength slaps, but I had begun to really enjoy the few that tipped over into the harsher ones. I’d start wailing and collapse into the hit, but would end up coming up giggling. Something about the absurd severity of the pain made me giddy.

“So, this whole thing, hurting you, it doesn’t really bother me,” he explained. “That pout you keep putting on isn’t going to sway me. You know your safewords. Otherwise, I’m just going to hurt you.”

His hands were large and unyielding. He didn’t hesitate before the slaps, going right into them and following through with a violent clap. He had me count down for the particularly hard ones. When he’d gotten me to a point that it was absolutely certain I would bruise, he reached up my dress and pushed a few fingers into me with my thigh still hot and stinging.

“Look at that,” he teased, before pulling back and slapping me across the face. “Going to leak on my friend’s couch, now? After the talk we had about my car? You can’t help yourself. You’re disgusting.” I felt my cheeks flush and looked away, but his fingers slid in me with new ease. He chuckled appreciatively. “Well, that really got you.”

Eventually, the fingers came out and he had me rest my head on his chest while we unpacked the encounter, going over how I felt about it. My thigh was still glowing with pain. Flint reached down and brushed my hair off of my forehead. “I like you.”

“I like you, too.” Against my ear, I felt the thumping in his chest pick up in speed and grinned. “There’s the pulse.”

How is Craftsmate handling all of the recent developments in your life? Has he struggled with it at all? Has it bothered him that some of these “firsts” werent with him?

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I was about to make a whole post about this, actually. But I’ve been totally putting it off because it’s hard to talk about.

The situation with him right now is different in general. This is the longest we have ever been apart from each other. His situation in particular right now is kind of crappy: shit going on at home, secondary partner has moved away and job stuff that’s keeping him from doing the things he loves (making kinky crafts and hitting pretty girls.)

A few months ago, we were totally reversed, so I can empathize with how he feels. Things were heating up with the aforementioned secondary and I would literally end up crying myself to sleep every night together because my fears had convinced me that because of their similarities and their proximity to each other, he would just leave me for her.

Thankfully, he’s a little more level-headed about the whole situation than I was. He does feel upset, naturally, that he can’t be there now that I’m finally able to acknowledge the kind of submissive I want to be. It absolutely stinks that he’s not around for a lot of my breakthroughs, most of which are happening over the phone, where I can finally be like, “wow, this is okay and I can do this.”

That’s just the self-initiated stuff. When it comes to Flint & co, there’s a whole new can of worms. Partially because I’m carrying out some of this new stuff with people who aren’t him, and partially just because while he’s amazing about compersion, he naturally still feels envy or gets a serious case of FOMO.

The other night, for instance, I was out with Flint and the other guy that some of you people apparently think I’m recreationally sneezing on, and Sir was finally free/able to Skype. We hadn’t Skyped since the beginning of June and he excitedly informed me that he was free. And there was this awkward, “oh guess what I know I was only getting lunch with these people but I’m still out.” We were overdue seeing each other, but it was annoying. I’d much rather be out with other partners, come home to him, have him be off doing his own thing as well, etc.

So long answer short: yeah, it’s really hard. But we’re trying and he’s proud of me for the progress I’ve made. And, naturally, I’m saving a lot of firsts just for him.

It’s only poly problems…

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halfinishedbook:

thinkivykink:

…until you go on a date with a cute guy in the same poly community as you’re kind of in and then can kiss him because you’ve got the same cold.

#polybenefits

Srsly? Call me old fashioned, but when I’m sick, I keep it to myself. being poly shouldn’t be an excuse to share a disease. :/

Oh my good actual WE HAD THE SAME COLD. 

He and I both got this cold from separate contact with the same person. We also were about four days deep, so the period of peak contagiousness was basically closed. We’re both also 99% recovered now.

The joke was that being poly got us all into this situation in the first place. As in, patient zero (if you will) was is in my “poly community” and by the time she started showing symptoms, a bunch of us had already gotten it from contact with her. I hadn’t even messed around with her, I just got it from hanging out.

I’m not out in the streets like, “hell yeah sharin’ partners sharin’ diseases. All us non-monogamous people gotta sneeze on each other more often.”

Gosh.

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Technically, it’s topless.

And, no, I totally didn’t buy these. Just took a bunch of photos of myself in them in the changing room for Sir.

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nankingdecade:

I’m very happy with girl’s progress over the past few months. She has taken ownership of her training to be a good little fucktoy, becoming more brave and slutty, overcoming shame, embracing her darker desires and the need to serve. And everyone knows nothing reinforces good behavior better than well-deserved praise.

I only wish that it were all while you were right here with me, Sir.

So apparently…

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So apparently…

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Sir had me edge myself three times today.

I whined to Flint about it, who then proceeded to make me edge three more times for complaining to him.

If anybody needs me, follow the puddles to where I’ll be pouting for eternity.

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Current status.

I am feeling well enough so I am off to a munch (as always, running late) to hang with the eternally gorgeous WRM and hopefully other cute girls.