Gah, I’ll just leave this here and have a LOT of feelings about it.
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“You just wanna know those peanut butter vibes.”
Is there a specific fetish for that feel when a hand absolutely overwhelms someone’s body? Like the one that’s practically a cuff around her throat? Because my GOSH.
Don’t you go and underestimate tenderness.
“It isn’t that hard, boy, to like you or love you
I’d follow you down, down, down
You’re unbelievable
If you’re going crazy, just grab me and take me
I’d follow you down down down, anywhere, anywhere.”
“I wish you wouldn’t hit me so hard,” I whined. “I need to build my tolerance back up.”
“Baby,” Pup said. “How do you think you build a tolerance?”
“It’s hard to tell the difference between sea and sky, between voyager and sea. Between reality and the workings of the heart.” – Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore.
I have a date tonight with this girl I’ve gone out with a few times over the past few weeks.
It’s been an interesting transition in the sense that I’ve known her since I first joined the scene in this city, and we’ve been kind of passing acquaintances for a while. We’ve talked at parties about mutual interests and mutual friends. Before going on dates with her, I knew she was a domme. But in January she asked me out – well, she did earlier than that, and I didn’t realize she was asking me out because I’m that awkward – and we’ve been having these weirdly chaste dates.
Which is fine. I haven’t been out wth a girl since like…2014? 2015? Too long.
“I know you’re probably like what’s this girl’s deal,” I said to her on our last date. “Considering you watched me go fuck someone at a party that I’d known for all of twelve minutes.” (I know I know I have to finish the other story with Rex BEAR WITH ME.)
Of course, I’m not obligated to put out. It was a joke. But she made me blush with her response nonetheless. “It’s fine. I can be a gentleman with you.”
That kind of bending of otherwise gendered language – calling people who identify as women Daddy, calling them gentlemen – really gets me, apparently.
So, I’m going over to her place tonight. And I’m super nervous but also pretty excited.
Stellar eyefucks to start the week.