run – Ivy

Make a run for it

Pup just got some incredible life/career-related news and I am the most excited ever for him. I’m waiting in an airport right now barely able to hold it together – I can’t wait to see him. I’m so proud.

However, this news means we’re probably moving to a new state. There’s the side of this that makes me a little anxious. Over the last four years in this city, I made a life. I lived alone for the first time. I fell in love with a place and with a person. I formed a circle of friends. I graduated from grad school and started a job I like (but am also kind of prepared to move on from and go into the next phase.) I made meaningful connections with partners.

So there’s the part of me that wonders if I’m willing to leave it behind and start again. And there’s the part of me – that is yelling louder, that feels right – that it’s time to start this new chapter of our lives together. It’ll push me to ask for more in my career than be complacent with my current situation. I can decide with my partners what feels worthwhile to keep going from (not all that) afar. (It is not as big of a move as it was from where I went to college to this city, not by a long-shot.) I never wanted to put down roots here. And I am young still and more in love with Pup than I am with this city.

And maybe, secretly, a little ready to move on.

We’ll see.

See you all in a few days.

Hehe.

Can Santa please look like Ashe Maree and bring booze for dealing with relatives?

ixnay-on-the-oddk:

Happy Christmas Eve!
Love,

Ashe- Santa’s best beer bitch lol

Current status.

Despite not getting any sleep last night, I decided to go for a jog this evening rather than just take a nap or get a really early night. There has been some stuff on my mind lately and I decided to pull on some sneakers to just clear my head for a while.

I mentioned earlier today that I missed the rain. It was as if Mother Nature reads my tumblr, because somewhere into the run I started to feel some drops on my shoulders. I kept going until I saw some lightning fill the sky for a moment and decided it would be in my best interest to turn back.

As I started to run back towards home, it started pouring. Buckets. Everywhere. So hard I could barely keep my eyes open as it pooled on my cheekbones and stuck to my lashes. So clean and so pungent at the same time. Rain just has the strangest smell.

I picked up speed as I got into town and saw people scrambling from storefronts to their cars. A couple crowded under a small umbrella, a child practically diving into the backseat of a sedan, a woman covering her head with a pizza box. Some men sitting at a table under the overhang at a bar chuckled as I passed with my goosebump-covered skin and my ponytail stuck to the side of my neck.

When I got inside, I practically had to wring myself out. I peeled off my tank top and sports bra and squeezed the wetness from my hair. I took a few deep breaths, evening myself out after having rushed home.

And, finally, I felt completely awake.

sveaolf:

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