Halfway There, Part Six
Disclaimer: The content of this particular post includes some pretty harsh treatment. Please keep in mind that I had safe words – “yellow” for slow down or do less, “red” for stop. The things I did were done willingly and enthusiastically, even when I demonstrated reluctant or fearful behavior. I could always stop what was happening to me.
Flint had Lida climb off of my face and applied a pair of wooden clothespins to my nipples. I sucked in a deep breath, trying to keep my composure with them on while he beat me with all manner of things, some familiar and some looking like the antennae that used to be on top of a car in the 90s.
“They really hurt,” I finally admitted.
Flint gave me a look of ‘well, yeah’ before he leaned down and flicked one of the clothespins. I winced hard. “You want them off, then?”
I nodded frantically. “Please, please. It hurts too much. Please.” I continued to beg, my eyes pleading, my body squirming under the pain of the clothespins squeezing my nipples.
“All right, let’s get them off,” Flint conceded, raising a hand to slap the clothespins off of my nipples one by one. The first came off with a painful snap, but the second ended up twisting around the nipple. I wailed in pain. Flint smirked, “bet that really hurts, huh?” He raised his hand to slap it again.
At this point, I was in so much pain that I was barely thinking. While my legs were bound, my arms weren’t. Before Flint could smack the clothespin once more, I reached up and removed the clothespin myself. He stopped, arm still in the air, looking a little shocked.
“You seriously didn’t just do that,” he shook his head. “I’ve never ever had someone do that.” He called the girls over and I covered my face with my hands, feeling embarrassed.
“I’m sorry,” I murmured, “it just hurt a whole lot and I wanted it off.”
I thought he would hit me or give me a spanking, but he just stayed still. “If it’s too much, you use a safe word. Do you know your safe words?” I nodded nervously and he had me repeat them to him. “Otherwise, you take it.”
“But it was all twisted,” I complained.
He frowned. “You don’t think I know what I’m doing, then?”
I shrugged. I felt rather small, ashamed that I hadn’t just used a safe word or allowed him to keep going. I could have taken the pain, but I was having trouble giving off that last resolve of control that prevented me from the kind of discomfort that I didn’t enjoy. Sure, I enjoyed it because I despised it, but I hadn’t even let myself go there.
“I’m better than this,” I insisted.
Flint took out his phone and started scolding me. “I’m going to tell your owner what you did. And I’m not going to tell him that you should get another tally, but I’m certainly going to suggest it."
I groaned. Perhaps seeing that I was kind of beating myself up for it, Flint sat down on the floor and pulled me upright. He held me for a few minutes to make sure I was all right. I think he saw that the scolding hadn’t gone over all too well and I was sort of beating myself up over it. Later on, he’d check in about it and make sure I was all right.
But, at that moment, I kind of beat myself up a little. I’d been messing around like this for quite a while. I wasn’t trying to be a brat and I felt I was better than this kind of thing. I was embarrassed that I’d let Sir down by not demonstrating that he’d trained me well. I’m a perfectionist, even when it comes to stuff like this.
So, I rested my cheek on Flint’s shoulder and reasoned with myself that, at the very worst, I’d just end up with another tally.