So, I seem to get all these sudden influxes of people with no clear reason. And, I’ve always kind of been curious. Followers, new and old, I ask you: how did you find me?
Feel free to just reply to the post and drop it in my askbox.
Month: April 2011
Sometimes, I want to find myself a sweet girl with a few vague, confusing fantasies and completely turn her world upside down.
Sometimes, it feels exactly like that.
Now, India, you know better than that. For the last time, no girlpets on the furniture.
There’s this guy who goes to college with me with this sexy, deep voice. The perfect kind of voice for dominating. Like, literally, he opens his mouth and my panties have the potential to just get soaked right through.
Here’s the thing: he’s not into anything like that at all. He’s incredibly committed to his girlfriend, who I’m fairly sure in their three years together he’s only done so much as kissed. He’s just this sweet guy who wouldn’t harm a fly and he’s just about as vanilla as they come.
We eat lunch together fairly often. It’s just torture.
Aw, I got your hopes up, didn’t I?
But, really, yeah, I didn’t go home with them. I wasn’t going to ditch my friends for this sort of thing.
Nonetheless, I had a pretty amazing night. Just what the doctor ordered.
We start talking. Casually. Not about anything weighing too heavily on this earth. About the band that’s playing, about the band that’s yet to come.
“We’ve got a hotel room nearby,” he finally says. She smiles, punctuating the thought.
I smile and play dumb, “yeah, I’m sleeping at a friend’s."
The music really picks up. The lead singer of the opener is dancing around the stage. The crowd is swaying with him.
They’re kissing. Deeply. Lovingly. I can tell I wouldn’t just be a fixer to this relationship. They don’t need me to be able to have a good night together. They’re just so comfortable with each other. They seem so happy. It’s actually a really sexy thought, one I’ve certainly gone into detail on in this tumblr.
He looks over his shoulder at me to see I’ve been watching. She smiles and nods a head over for me to join them. But, I just start dancing. I’m really not going to give in that easy. I just keep twisting and shaking with my friends, making sure to send an occasional smile over to them.
I noticed them right away.
We had just gotten a damn good spot by the stage and my friends and I were keeping to ourselves for the time being. We had met up here, some going to school in the area and some, such as I, a short train ride away. But, even in our insularity, I saw them. And I knew for a fact that they saw me.
She winked and nudged him. He looked over his shoulder at me and smiled before leaning down to kiss her. They just looked amazing together. They were one of those couples that made sense. They weren’t blindingly attractive, but they both were blessed with some wonderful attributes and they just seemed to compliment each other so well. It was like this weird kind of symbiosis where they both got a little more attractive out of it on virtue of fitting together (and, okay, being able to just flirt with me in such perfect harmony).
The opener came on. One of my friends followed my gaze before leaning over and whispering, “you into one of them or something?” I just smiled and shrugged. I wasn’t going to leave my friends to go after these people. And, yet…
Why Heart is my favorite:
Oh honey, big hugs. Wish they were in person. If I lived closer this is how I would distract you from all the icky-ness. xo
Updates from a pretty fascinating evening to come.
I am just having one of the worst days today and I’m just ready to curl up and have a good cry. Fortunately, I’ve got some awesome evening plans. But, right now, I am just so overwhelmed and I just feel like I am being tugged in a million directions at once. Sigh.