I’ve lived in this new city for almost a year now and I’m still calling it new.

I think part of it is the fact that I kind of haven’t let go of home. My friends are there, my family is there, my boyfriend is there. And while I made some friends here, I’ve always kind of had one foot out the door.

This summer, most of the friends I’ve made in my program aren’t around. And, I never really branched out locally. So, since I came back here, I’ve been kind of lonely, just going to work and mostly keeping to myself. I don’t know why I didn’t try to branch out, I guess I’ve just never really accepted that this is my home now. I thought if I kept writing this off as a temporary thing, I wouldn’t have to accept the fact that I miss everyone so much.

I was talking to Sir last night about how I was lonely, and he convinced me into finally switching over my okcupid and fetlife to the city I actually live in. As in, the one I’ve lived in for the past year. 

So, I’m going to a munch on Monday. And tonight I’m grabbing a drink with someone. Because I’ve decided it’s finally time I let go and put down some roots here.

axman:

Photo by: Igor Gritsenko