It’s hard, because I constantly say that I don’t want to forget any experience or cast it aside because it helped shape me into the person I am today. Even if that is a person who stops and says, “fuck that. I’m never doing that shit again.”

But, here’s what I have to offer:

“Rolling in the Deep” – Adele.

I had gotten back from one of probably the most emotionally fucked up nights of my life. It was one of those situations that it honestly takes time for you to process and really chew and say that what had happened was severely fucked up. It has, since, helped me articulate my needs and really understand my self-respect.

To add to the fucked-uped-ness, the involved stated over and over how profound and deep the experience was. 

Honestly, the only thing profound and deep about it was the degree to which it was fucked up.

But, at the time, I was a mess of confusion and feelings. I had been driven home and it was one of the true instances when I felt profoundly alone. I turned my Pandora on and this song came on and it just cut deep. I hadn’t begun to fully process, but the song somehow struck the right chord. 

For another song I’ll be releasing to the universe, go here.

And for one I’m reclaiming because fuck that, go here.