So, just because I’m completely turned off to SG as a person doesn’t mean I can’t still use him as masturbatory fodder.

Allow me to explain.

We did some really hot stuff. And while he’s causing me a lot of pain right now, sometimes I think about that stuff. And to avoid doing more damage by responding to some of his advances, I just masturbate it out.

Recently, I thought about this time I had to finish this paper and he wanted to mess around. I was procrastinating like crazy and he got so frustrated he said, “put your hand between your legs right now and touch your cunt.” I rolled my eyes and did it. “That’s the last time you’re touching it until you’re done with your paper. And when you’re done I’ll touch it for you.” He left and made me text him every time I finished a page. 

I figure, hopefully, I’ll get this stuff out of my system. It doesn’t help there isn’t much (in the ways of people) to do around here.