I got into it again with a member of the staff for my Christian group on campus. She and I have gotten into it a lot. And, usually, I leave feeling downtrodden and upset. But, this time, I just felt this prevailing sense of fear coming off of her and, for some odd reason, this was incredibly soothing to me. I felt as if I’d gotten closure.
She loves me. She does everything she does for me out of the best intentions and out of the love in her heart for me. But, she’s afraid. I can tell. She’s absolutely terrified because she just can’t understand. She was sheltered and she just doesn’t get it.
And for this reason, I really can’t be angry with her. I can try to explain it to her as best as I can, but at the end of the day, I can’t hate her for it or get upset.