the only thing a boy’s gonna give a girl for free
’s captivity
fornix / 30X30 / oil paper wood / 2014
We didn’t have any lube in the house, so my left index finger was just teasing her tightness from underneath, her hips propped up on the pillow and ankles on my shoulders. I wet my other hand in my mouth and then made sure she was wet, too; I’d been smacking her around earlier to get her warmed up, and it worked. “Sorry,” she giggled just after she came the first time. “Am I in trouble?”
She was, if not in the way she thought. I pushed two fingers on my right hand deep inside her slippery hole, downward, not curling them up like I usually do. Then I pressed up with my left hand until they could feel each other. Through her.
She gasped and arched and grabbed the sheets. “Oh,” she remarked.
“Too much?” I said.
“No,” she said. “Keep going.”
I fucked her with my right hand. “Jesus,” she said, “I’m so wet I’m making pond sounds.” Then I tilted my fingers–mine can bend backward a bit; we’re both flexible in our own ways–and pushed until I felt, well, bone.
“What IS that?” she said, her eyes a little wild.
“I think it’s your tailbone?” I said, and probed a little harder. “No wait–I think it’s the back of your pelvis.”
“HOW?” she said.
I pulled my hand out and sucked some of her off my fingers, then drew a little diagram on her stomach. “Okay, so this is your vagina, and this is your cervix at the top. But it protrudes a little downward into the vagina, so there are pockets at the top and bottom. The vaginal fornices. The anterior one is what you can feel when I’m inside you and I’m pressing down on your lower belly from outside. Just now, I was exploring your posterior fornix.”
“It felt a LOT,” she said.
“Do you want more?” I asked.
“Yes please,” she said, and pulled my hand back, and then my head down between her thighs.
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Happy birthday.
I love your porn- it’s is great. I love your politics more. Thanks for being a great porn writer and vocal about rape culture in the same blog.
StandardThis means a lot to me to read. Thank you, dear reader. I’m glad you like the stories I post here, and I’m gratified by your kind words. I don’t want to take anything away from that, or imply that you don’t know all this, with the following:
Reading this message made me think about the ways in which people like me are lauded just for showing up. I work hard on the things I write, and try my best to address sensitive issues with care and humility. When I do that, though, I’m often looking to examples set by others. I follow a number of porn blogs that address and refute rape culture, but I suspect they are praised less for it, because they’re written and run by women. When they do the work it’s taken for granted; when I do similar work it seems special. Double standards are sometimes hard to see.
I’m not going to act like I have the authority to tell anyone else what to write or promote. I’m not going to pretend I was born social-justice sinless and never posted fuckboy shit. (Among the reasons you’ll never see my real name here? I don’t need anyone collecting my receipts.) But.
If I am part of a population with power over others, and if I promote fantasies that touch on violence against those populations, then I have a responsibility to distinguish fantasy from reality, clearly and in my own words. To publish adult material, I have to be a public adult.
I appreciate your compliment, anon, and to be clear: kindness like yours makes the work lighter. But the work needs doing regardless. This isn’t a stretch goal. This is the starting line.
Rules and models destroy genius and art.
William Hazlitt (via hypersexualgirl)
I get off on destroying genius and art
does the institute not adhere to AP style where “internet” is concerned?
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Bless your heart, my dear and precious reader. A moment’s thought would surely have brought you to the epiphany that the Institute, of all places, follows APA or GTFO.
Oh, my sweet and darling readers. You’ve been so good. You’ve been SO patient. I have so much gratitude for your excellent behavior; I can only hope this will be worth the wait.
Housebound chapter 8 is live at Literotica.
I don’t know why I can’t get enough today, I got a nice hard fuck earlier and my boyfriend let me use the toy to cum while he was inside me. Then a couple hours later he let me cum again, and here I am still rubbing my clit as I scroll through tumblr, feeling like an insatiable little fuckslut. I guess once last night and once this afternoon isn’t enough for me, it just makes me want more. Makes me crave more until I feel like I’m nothing but this hole between my legs, waiting to get used again. @doctortease, does the Institute have a treatment for this feeling?
Behavior Correction Case File #451: Justice. Subject displays excessive libido, to the point of interference with her day-to-day life, comorbid by exaggerated focus on her own genitalia and a self-centered objectification fantasy. Subject displays high-risk behavior by reaching out to strangers on the Internet to deal with these issues.
While one might read Justice’s dossier and decide that an “insatiable little fuckslut” is exactly what the Institute aims to produce, her case in fact demonstrates a known issue encountered in later stages of treatment. The issue centers on self-absorption. Even after accepting an orgasm control regimen and having her self-concept reduced to “nothing but a hole,” the subject may end up in a psychological cul-de-sac where her own satisfaction is both paramount and unattainable.
We at the Institute, of course, wish nothing more than to help our subjects transcend such obstacles on the road to becoming their best selves. The first step for Justice is a hard reset–a period of weeks during which she will be used, punished, rewarded or locked away in the dark completely at random, until she can no longer imagine a logical pattern of reinforced behavior and all previous training is effectively erased. This is traditionally quite hard on the subject, but necessary, and within the parameters of her assessed resilience.
When she’s ready, we will begin again from scratch, focusing on the following points: that her pleasure is someone else’s choice, and has no relationship to satisfaction; that insatiable need is a baseline state, and comforting; and that in addition to her vagina and vulva, all her orifices are of equal importance, and dedicated to the use of others.
This treatment plan will be effective if followed properly. Nonetheless, there is significant risk that Justice will fall back into her current pattern if not closely monitored for deviation from expected progress. Cases such as hers are among our most important work, so no matter how many times we have to reset her and start over, we are committed to doing this right.
Hold your breath, four-eyes.
The scholar-athletes of the St Tantalus Academy, such as they are, are not in fact known as the Spartans. It’s just that there is a long tradition among their rival schools of bringing one’s own branded gear to matches against them, in the understanding that, post-loss, this position will be the first of several the St Tantalus girls are required to take.
Don’t try this at home, kids.
can i stop?
StandardWhy do you want to?
Both before intake and after those rare occasions when treatment is deemed complete, the Institute keeps tabs on its prospective and retrospective subjects via personnel in the field. Thanks to the advance of technology such as webcams, GPS tracking, and activity bands, this process is now easier and more comprehensive than ever, but written documents such as Outpatient Surveillance Report 5A-244 still play an important role in building up a clear record for assessment, diagnosis, and intake–or even re-intake, in special cases.
(As always, if you have documents in this vein you’re interested in contributing, the Institute will consider your submission.)
I recently retired this Jimmyjane Form 3 vibrator after years of honorable service, and I was curious enough about its inner workings to… well, perform surgery on it. I learned some interesting things!
As you can see above, the shell of the toy is two layers of silicone–a gray inner layer, which gives it structure, and a pink outer one that wraps it in form. I had assumed the arch at the top was a piece of rigid plastic or something, but no, it’s all just silicone, as are the little plugs that keep the whole thing seated in the main vibrator assembly (which IS hard plastic–see below).
I haven’t taken this apart yet, but I expect to find a battery, a little piece of breadboard to handle timing, and the LED that lights up that little window to show that the toy is charging. (That metal dome on the bottom is the charging contact that rests against the base, which is notoriously a little tricky to get seated just right.)
My guess is they assemble this thing in stages: injection-mold the plastic assembly shell, drop in the electronics and screw it shut, paint some glue on the outside, place that in a new mold and inject the gray silicone shape, place THAT in the final mold and inject the colored silicone, and finally seal on the charging cap. The only apparent glue was on the hard plastic, which makes me think the heat of the molding process sticks the silicone shells together seamlessly. If there are sprues from filling the mold, they must be on the bottom, where the cap attaches. It’s a neat way to make a seamless assembly–which not only looks lovely, but keeps it watertight.
The actual motor is really strong for its size! When I switched it on post-dissection, it rattled VERY loudly on the operating table and walked itself around in circles as captured above. Immediately after this video was taken, it shook itself hard enough to snap one of the two little wires connecting the motor to the battery. I’ve been tinkering with a few DIY sex toys lately, I and I had vague thoughts about trying to incorporate this into a different apparatus, but I’ll have to see if I can solder the wire back together first. I’ll be sure to update if I do.
I’m sure you will be grateful to learn that The Institute, as part of its public outreach program, has begun releasing certain forms and documents used as part of its daily work to the public under an open license. Through this new channel, they hope to collaborate and share with like-minded practitioners and organizations, and provide both the hobbyist and the professional with resources they need for our shared challenges. You can now download the first such document, the standard short-schedule intake form 899-72, with the Institute’s blessing.
(Also, if you’re the kind of person who likes to play with git, contributions will be considered.)
Hi there! Your blog is the personification of my secret desires and needs! Out of interest would you ever be interested in setting up something akin to the institutions that feature in your stories? xxx
StandardI’m glad you enjoy the stories–or don’t, depending on how you feel about those secrets. Thank you for the message. As for your question: my dear, who says I’m not already?
Batteries not included.