Just a draft that’s been in my drafts for like a long ass time that I kinda want to keep there š š
personal
I’m high and just really really wanting to get slapped around and beat up
I HAVE TO DO MY HOMEWORK WHY AM I LIKE THIS. SOMEONE MAKE ME DO MY HOMEWORK.
@spinal-knobs posted their results to this, and I thought it was very interesting. So here we are, my results from bdsmtest.org. Seems pretty accurate to me.
I havenāt been properly tortured in months. Which is like, torture denial, which is a whole other level of torture but itās not intentional and it sucks a lot more and makes me feel bad. But thinking of it in that light helps a little? Ugh I have needs. Been a masochist since I was a little kid, thatās not just going away and lately I havenāt had an outlet after getting used to having not only a outlet, by having a person around that was perfectly suited to my flavor of masochism. Gah.
Things I Want – Lovehoney.com
LinkSo… There’s a link on my blog, too, but putting this out there, this is my wishlist on lovehoney and I would really love more toys, but I’m broke. If any of you feel like spoiling me, I would be very appreciative and might post some appreciative photos of myself with said toys! I dunno if anything will come of this but, you know, worth a shot :3
I want really to be owned and controlled and cared for š I need it right now, I want to be your bitch but it’s not a good time and there’s not anyone else I feel has the right to it so I guess I’ll just feel sad and alone for right now. It will pass.
I just listened to Calās Curse for the first time and tbh Iām a little bit freaked by how far I sunk and how immensely aroused and genuinely scared I felt while I was listening to it, and that I actually woke up really quickly on 5. Ā Now that Iām awake Iām pretty sure itās not going to work in the long run but I guess weāll see O.o
2 days in a row of wholly unsatisfying orgasms : I get a sad feeling I’m entering another dry spell
Honestly just really feeling my body tonight