I can’t seem to help having orgasms when I play with myself, but having orgasms turns me off to anything sexual for a random amount of time and it’s very frustrating because I’d much rather be easy to turn on and frustrated, at least sometimes, but I just can’t seem to do it.

So instead I keep having orgasms, even when I’m not that horny, and it just ensures that I never get that horny. Like, my libido is already like 1000x lower than I’d like it to be, I should be doing whatever I can to help boost it. Not the other way around. Sigh.