I don’t actually talk about pain very much here. When I’m hanging out on porn tumblr. I’m focused more on the stuff that’s psychological/emotional and usually verbal. When I’m on here, I’ll read about and write about stuff like “beg me to keep hurting you. You fucking love this, don’t you?” etc. because that’s what I usually like to think about when I’m getting off. But I haven’t talked much here about the physical experience of pain play and how good that can feel.
This is the aspect that, a few years ago, I wasn’t even sure if I would like. I knew I liked reading about it, I knew I liked thinking about someone taunting me and teasing me for liking it, but I didn’t know if I would actually like how it feels. Well it turns out I do, I fucking love it.
The initial slap, the bite, the scratch, the sharp feeling, that part I like because I want to struggle and whimper and feel powerless. It’s the part that comes after that that’s straight-up pleasure, where it just glows. That’s the best way I can describe it, the glow of the pain slowly fading out, and it feels amazing.
My favorite is when the intensity just barely nudges up against the limit of how much I think I can take. Not shoved really hard up against that limit, that’s a different type of play, but just slightly past that threshold where part of me says “oh shit, too much” and the rest of me really wants to take it.
But then again, there’s a lot to be said for the slow and steady kind, where it can just keep going for ages. This is another thing I don’t bother to fantasize about when I’m alone, but then actually doing it is amazing. When it just builds on itself continuously, getting me more and more in the zone, and I feel all floaty and wonderful after. There’s a lot to be said for that.
This isn’t about teasing but I’m still putting this in my Tease Theory tag because it’s such an awesome explanation.
