I’m so sensitive to the language of masculinity especially when it comes to my romantic relationships with men. I always felt like there was something wrong with me growing up because when I would have (specifically) men infatuated with me and ask them why, nothing they would tell me would make me feel good about myself. I always hear things like “You make me feel this X quality, which I normally don’t”. Is it so selfish that I would like to be liked because I am a good person? Not because I make you “feel like you can be yourself” or because I “make you feel young again”. I have been made to feel too much my whole entire life just by existing and being so deeply empathetic and passionate in my emotions and instincts because I don’t want to accept empty infatuation based off of the fact that someone thinks I am beautiful and I make them feel good about themselves. Love bred out of thinking that someone makes you better is selfish and in-genuine. What does that have to do with me? There’s a big difference between having a person be so magnetic and special that they inspire great things in you and thinking you need to possess someone mentally and physically in order to reach your full potential
