Means:
*Never being able to trust my own thoughts and feelings
*Spending huge amounts of time, money, and energy chasing treatments that never work
*Being socially isolated and lonely because the world is not meant for people like me
*Being unable to relate or connect with other people unless they are also depressed
*Sense of paralysis with no motivation to do anything
*Having no hope in my future
*Being obsessed with death
*Constant, unrelenting exhaustion
*Alternating between sleeping and crying all day
*Extreme sensitivity to loss, rejection, trauma
*Feeling very sad for my family when I realize I will most likely end my life
*Experiencing all of these things even though I am in talk therapy and on medication like the perfect model patient.
anonymous writer
Month: July 2015
IM SCMREMAING THIS WHOLE HASHTAG BACKFIRED N ALL THE WHITE GIRLS R GETTING DRAGGED ON TWITTER N THIS IS MY FAVORITE ONE!!! JACKÉE STAY WOKE!!!!
SHUT UP?!
Just A Phase
StandardI hear “it’s just a phase” a lot. I’m panromantic asexual, and almost everyone I meet feels the need to weigh in on my romantic and sexual orientation, ready to tell me all the ways in which I am not valid.
My number one answer, every time, is “so what.”
SO. FUCKING. WHAT.
All I see is people rushing to assure people that it’s not just a phase, but even if it was, that doesn’t make it any less valid. People are fluid. Orientations are fluid. When I was 15, I preferred dating boys to dating girls. Now, at 23, I prefer to date girls. When I’m 35, I may find myself, however improbably, actually wanting to have sex.
None of that makes what I am going through right now- who I am right now- any less valid.
Do you know what else is a phase? Childhood. I don’t hear anyone telling their eight year old that they aren’t actually eight because by this time next year, they will be nine. That would be ridiculous.
In five years, they’ll be about to start high school. That doesn’t mean I’ll be making that child read Catcher in the Rye and doing calculus.
When I was 8, I was going to going to be the first female president. At 10, I ate nothing but pasta. When I was 12, I thought Naruto was the coolest thing ever. These were all phases, all ones that I grew out of, and no one ever told me that, because those things wouldn’t be true in another six months, they weren’t real.
The present is what matters. What you feel now is what matters. Who knows what you’ll feel tomorrow. It’s no one’s fucking business.
Go through your phases. Feel free to change. You grow. You learn. You adapt.
And nothing that you feel is invalid.
Fuck yes. I was waiting for the internet to provide me with this specific scene to watch over and over.
(Source: http://ohokaybueno.tumblr.com/)
all of us have been unlearning problematic things – it’s really malicious and in bad faith to purposefully dig up old posts by someone that do not reflect their current opinions and attack them over it out of context
and stop taking a tone of superiority as if you’ve never said problematic things before. none of us were born radical and well-educated.
note to self: just because u keep in contact with ur abuser that does not mean that the abuse did not occur. never sweep any abuse or trauma that u have endured under the rug. don’t avoid those painful feelings. don’t repress those memories. the sooner u acknowledge them, the sooner u can heal and recover.
“Shibari Feeling”
From the “Beauty in Suffering Series”
Photography: http://phareanutello.tumblr.com/
Shibari & Editing: DasFalke
Model: Vanessa
Location: Berlin, Germany
Oh my god. So perfeeeect. I want it!!!