Means:
*Never being able to trust my own thoughts and feelings
*Spending huge amounts of time, money, and energy chasing treatments that never work
*Being socially isolated and lonely because the world is not meant for people like me
*Being unable to relate or connect with other people unless they are also depressed
*Sense of paralysis with no motivation to do anything
*Having no hope in my future
*Being obsessed with death
*Constant, unrelenting exhaustion
*Alternating between sleeping and crying all day
*Extreme sensitivity to loss, rejection, trauma
*Feeling very sad for my family when I realize I will most likely end my life
*Experiencing all of these things even though I am in talk therapy and on medication like the perfect model patient.
anonymous writer
