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So over the weekend the main lesson that my Dom and I worked on was reminding me what my mouth is for. For a lot of people I’m sure it seems like you use your mouth at work and around friends and family one way, and then how you use your mouth when you and your Dom are alone is a different way completely. For me, I felt like that at first but something he’s always tried to instill in me is that my mouth should please him at all times. Obviously there’s the physical side of it, but even when he’s not around it’s my job to speak in a manor that is respectful, polite, and a good example of him at all times. I especially enjoy it when I’m around him and his friends, between my how speak to them and how I act around them, it’s like I’m submitting to them and they don’t even know it. I also know that if my Dom is impressed with how I’ve behaved around them, he’ll always compliment and rewards me later.

As for what we did this weekend, unless I was servicing him with my mouth, eating, or sleeping, I was gagged pretty much the rest of the weekend. He gave me some breaks when my jaw would get too stiff or start cramping, but the main lesson this weekend was that my mouth was there for his pleasure and to take his cum and unless I was doing those thing, I needed to be gagged. Being gagged for so long was so dehumanizing but I loved it. It made it so clear what my role was and what his expectations of me were. It was almost like I was in this constant state of meditation, focusing on my breathing, keeping constantly aware of his needs and wishes, while reminding myself over and over that my silence and acceptance were pleasing to him. There’s also such an animalistic feel to being gagged for me too, having my mouth and voice restrained in that way.

It’s hard to take at first, humbling yourself and realizing that your voice and opinions aren’t important. I know most of my friends wouldn’t be able to handle it. There are just so many clear and intense lessons, for example, having the gagged taken off, being made to service him, rimming him, sucking his balls, giving him a long and effortful oral service, having your mouth fucked, only to have the gag put back on and locked as soon as it’s done. Such a clear show of domination and use, forcing the submissive to realize what their mouth is for. Then there’s the inability to stop yourself from salivating and drooling all over yourself, having to clean up any drops or strings of saliva that you leave as you’re doing chores or kneeling on the floor. The gag just adds that little bit of extra humiliation, restraint, and loss of control that makes submission feel so good and consuming. 

Needless to say my jaw is pretty stiff today but since we’re getting back to basics this week I’m sure I have other things to think about soon enough.Have a great week!

Unf. Instant subspace and wetness. It’s been awhile since something hit me like this.

Maybe I get off on being objectified even more than I thought I did.

*blush*

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